i felt so useless. i used to love staying at home so much. y everything end up like this! i some how hate to stay at home. i felt so stressful, what ever that belongs to me had gone. you took away my things but i remain silent. make me real fuck up when you still add on words to hurt me. what kind of world is this!? nobody care to help. just let it be alright! i really cant take these nonsense anymore. i swear i am leaving! if u happen to see this post, let me tell u one last time ok! i don't give a damn on what you said. it's total non of your business whether i am coming home anot. since you hate me so much, don't want to see my face. what's the point of me staying and make myself so damn fucking up sad!? frankly speaking, after all you are still my brother. no matter what i always gave you a chance, asked yourself how do you treat me and think about how i treat you.? i loved my family a lot. i cherish everyone, but you shows that you don't! mommy didn't even say anything when i am staying at my boyfriend's house. why you want to be such a kpo! saying that want to teach me a lesson behalf of mommy. what a joke! since young till now, you hit me scold me all these nonsense that you had done. you said you are just helping mommy to teach meimei.. please la. you do so it's just for yourself. i am not your pet! i am not to going let you control my life! i got my way, and please kindly fuck off! you make me gone out of my mind!!! mommy i am sorry.. i didn't want all these to happen. i love you a lot! please don't listen to what korkor say. i didn't done anything wrong. i am still you good daughter. am i? mommy we used to be so close so close so close! but because of some misunderstanding we are drift apart.. tears are rolling down while i am typing this post. give me some time. i'll prove to you that i am not your useless child! papa thanks for trusting me! thanks for protecting me! although you didn't talk much to us. i know that you still love us a lot. i promise i'll stay strong! i'll do better and i'll lead a better life then his. papa i love you too! i cherish my family my love ones. someone just don't understand the meaning of "family".