21/2/2008, thursdayhmm.. sorry guys. was real busy at work. didnt have e time to blog. n i really hate this day.. hate myself so much. quarrel with htoo2. maybe it's all my fault. i don really care abt it anymore.. i have been tolerating this company for so long. treat me like ur dog? or maid? help ur so much.. your didnt appreciated what i have done. i have never fail to do what ur want me to do. scold me when it's not my fault.. i tolerated. promised to promote me. but when? hmm.. it's ok. i don need it anymore. intend to quit. ur r curel to me.. but i wont treat u guys like tat. i'll wait for e company to hired more staff.. in this 3 years with this company. there's ups and downs. i'm glad tat i know alot of great friends in this company. n i'll always remember lawson chen! last time when i was a part timer. i used to have bad working attitude. he's e one tat change my working attitude. love those days tat work with him. thanks lawson! hmm.. now i jus simply hope tat i can quit as soon as possible. i'm tired! really tired! n wat.. in e afternoon my mom received a call from my auntie. said my popo was sent to hospital. at tat min i break in to tears. how i wish i'll b able to c her. i ask myself.. how long i haven been to her hus to visit her? my excuse will b.. i'm tired after my work. i'm not free.. i'll visit her when i'm free.. even when she's sick. i didnt borther to visit her. what kind of grandchild am i? but this time i really want to c her. i miss her. i love her. i want her. she's e greatest grandmother.! after work.. ard 11 plus i rush down to Tan Tock Seng Hospital. went to A&E to check for ward n bed no. when i went up to e ward.. e nurse said she's still in A&E.. asked me wait outside. they will call me when they have sent her up. waited for an hours plus.. she's here. it hurts when i saw she suffering.. but she still said she's ok. i accompany her for awhile.. after awhile she nag at me. n i cried out infront of her. she hold me hands askin me what's wrong. i'm not sad because she nag at me. it's jus tat i missed her nagging at me. i always don have time for her. last time i scared of her nagging.. but now.. i don mind. i wan her to nag at me whenever i saw her.. popo.. ni yao jiayou! meimei ai ni..
p.s: cai shushu~ xiexie ni de an wei. u must take care of ur health too ok. sleep eariler!=)
(23/2/2008)
♥ 11:14 AM
it's monday again! haha i hate it! a new week... n y must i take off on monday!? sian): n wat happened to our store!? only left with 2 managers, 3 full-timer, 6 part-timer. tat's all for our manpower! we cant depends on those part-timers to work more for us, cos they r still studying. e only thing our manager can do is to put me n saiful work LONG hours! hahaha.. everyday FULL shift! i'm tired-.- i wan to be free! when can i really QUIT!? when can i look for other job? when can i go for my studies?? i really hate this company alot! i don wan to stay there anymore.. but i wont leave jus like tat. i'll b responsible. there's already so many staff leaving.. wat if i leave too.. e store will b damn messy! anyway yeo treat me well too. hmm hopefully someone can save me! more crew pls... hahaha=x i better take a good rest.. tml onwards.. CHIONG AH!!!! hahaha work like a dog!?
erm.. QX i don know if u would b reading my blog? haha jus wanna tell u tat i feel happy for u and ur girl=) anyway we r still fren. hope u r doing good! haha.. take care n i know tat ur can hold hand to hand FOREVER!<3
♥ 2:02 PM
this few days, our store was damn busy~! no staff.. no mananage! i have been working from 12-close for e whole week. hai.. management sucks! toopid~ hmm.. have been busy with work. tired! tat's y i'm lazy to blog.. i really wan to leave this bloody company! damn it! pls la.. how much u pay me!? said i'm a trainer.. so wat! i'm working more den a normal crew.. i rather b a part-timer. n u guys treat me.? there's so many jobs offer to me.. but i still stay in this bloody company! i hate it! now i jus hope tat e company can hired more ppl. i'll train them well before i resign. i don wan to waste my time anymore! hai... off to work. i'm late! T.T
uncle cai~~~~~~
haha.. got ur name in my blog le.. don worry! i'll remember you de. thank you so much for ur concern! i'll buy 10 pillow for u to hug ok?? hahaha.. anyway. jiayou for ur singing=D
(cai) linxinyi
♥ 12:14 PM
CNY??? what kind of new year? everythings went wrong! his heart was broken. nobody knows. he's feeling sad but he hide everything. can time really heal all wounds?? when? nobody knows. in this period of time i'm sure he is having a hard time missing HIM. other den waiting for him. i don know wat i can do or say. i'm damn useless. all i can do is oso cried with him. e world is full of surprise! things doesnt go e way we want.. everything happened in a unexpected way! no chance to say NO! no time to waste! it's too late.. always thing a bright side of ur life. if u think tat ur life sucks! there's always another person compared to u telling u tat his/her life sucks! wat's e point!? from now on i'm gonna cherish each n everyone beside me. living a life tat's worth! things tat has happened cant go back to normal. we can only chose to accept e fact! running away from e truth will only make u suffer! everything is over! start a new life! memories will always b there.. don stay in ur comfort zone.. step out of it! old dreams are gone.. set new goals! no one would wan to see their loved one to die in e memories! keep on going.. jia you!
♥ 1:12 PM
yesterday was so horrible! so tired at work. almost faint! cos mon nite went out for e whole nite. e next day work morning shift. starting from 7am! actually i supposed to work at 12 but i have already promised nicholas to help him do preparation and thawing for chinese new year. so i start at 7am instead. begaining i was doing fine. drink 2 cups of coffee to make me stay awake! totally no use! haha.. ard 1plus i am already dying.. cant think of anything.. my mind auto shut down le=x i m down with energy. jus don wish to do anything! even when i took my break.. i didnt eat anything. i was sitting in e office, close my eyes and rest. all i know and all i want is to go home and sleep! haha.. e day seems to b damn long! was counting down e hours to closing seen i start at 7. wait n wait n wait! huray~! finally 9.30 le. can start doing pre-close and after closing i can go hm le=D and thank you wee guan! thank you for helping me to close charbolier. if i m e wan closing.. hahaha i don think we all can go back early le and i'm sure tat end of e day i'll injured myself. hmm.. we finish closin at 11plus. after everything done.. i quickly went up to taxi stand to take a cab home. i know it's a waste of money. but no choose i don want to fall asleep in train. and i don have e energy to walk home after i reached bishan station. haha i rather spend tat 8 bucks to take cab home and faster bath le den sleep. e worse thing is tat today i'm also working morning shift. but start at 8am. hee hee.. thank you laogong for giving me a morning call=D if not i'll still b wondering in my lala land=x after bath and pack my things. i rush down to work. was late! haha but luckly was ryan's shift. no worries! hee hee.. this time round he's e one tat was tired and sleepy! orh bi good~! same as me nv sleep. hmm.. but he's lucky tat he can knock off at 3. not like me, haha need to work FULL shift): and u r blessed to have crew like me ok! haha.. help u to look after store. let u slack in e toilet! hahaha=x and pls la.. u sleep for abt 2 hrs ok. and i help u with e complaints! kana scolding from e malay customer! all because of u!!! bleh=p toopid ryan kee! erm.. today there's a unexpected lunch crowd.. omg~! damn lots of ppl lor=/ sian.. was doin cashier alone. talk like siao.. and i got to take care of cp oso. busy busy busy sia.. take order.. pack order.. send order.. one person's pay but need to do 3 person's job-.- all because of ryan! he said he's giddy.. cant work. so during e lunch crowd.. i was runing ard e store like crazy while ryan sit in his office to key in e invoices. haha he's not tat curel towards me la. he did helped when i really cant handle. i can understand tat he's really tired and lack of sleep(: hee hee.. after work. it's 6pm le. went down to boon keng! went to my auntie house for dinner. it has been such a long time i didnt saw them. miss them so much especially my grandma=D we were have steamboat! chatting, eating and drinking. hee hee. i don drink=x was chatting with my piao jie. hmm.. know tat she got a bf le. xian mu ta(: cos heard from her tat her bf really treat her very well. they r still in e honeymoon period(: sweet^^ we stay there till 10plus.. went home together. haha.. wish everyone a happy rat year! hope tat everyone's dream will come ture=D BE BLESS!
it's a new year a new begaining! but somehow i received a bad news from my fren. alt we r not tat close. but i do care for him. hoping tat he is always doing fine. didnt expected tat things changes so fast. i don wish to write e incident tat happened to my fren on blog. it might b boring. cos i'm writing for e sick of my feelings. in this world everything u see now, it wont b e same all e time. always cherish one another. jus now i was so shock when i received e bad news. suddenly, i break into tears.. cried out loud on my way home. i really don know y i'll b like this? thinking of how he will b hurt from all those tots tat is on his mind. thinking of how he would b able to over come every emotions. how i wish i can talk to him see him.. ask abt e incident.. b there to cheer him. if he wan to scold or hit someone. i m willing to b e one! stupid me. i wont b able to see him unless he say he wan to see me. how many times i want to call him... but i don dare. he said he don want to b disturb. is he alrite? wat can i do? i hope tat he will find someone to share his troubles. don keep everything to heart. fren! no one can fully understand u or how u feel.. unless u r willing to share! i'm sorry. i did a very stupid thing.. untill u told me wat happened. I'M REAL SORRY! within this few days i wont contact u.try to cheer up. ppl tat dotes on u would like to see u smile. peng you! anyway take great care alrite.
hmm.. i'm getting sleepy le. going off to sleep. good nite!
♥ 11:22 PM
ARHHH~! haha.. dying soon. looking at my schedule i feel like crying.. T.T oh no. mon 12pm-11pm, tues 12pm-11pm, wed 8am-6pm, thur(cny 1) off, fri(cny 2) 8am-12am, sat(cny 3) 12pm-12am, sun (ph). i sure die on fri. think i'll go for work at 7am instead of 8am. so lame lor-.- haha just one hour different. hmm.. on thurs i might b going back to help them with closing.. ke lian lor): not enough staff. haha tat's my store ok! i don wan to see them die at work. alt i'm also very very very tired! hee hee.. got to charge myself with full energy le=D now it's already 2.30am! later 12pm start to chiong work for e week le! yeah~!
p.s: huray~! thurs will have my kbox session!=D i want to sing. lalalala~
♥ 2:36 AM
GOOD MORNING!=D wake up early to blog oh.. haha later going for work le(: actually working at 3 de. hmm but short of staff working. so will be going earlier. haha.. hope today everyone will b in good mood ba. yesterday was having fun at work(: alt i'm doing cashier.. i still felt so happy. wee guan was with me at counter. tudi n her tudi doing dinning(: hee hee i think i have gone crazy.. greetings was damn loud! haha siao liao.. i greet every single customers tat came in and out. even when there's no customer i also greet! muhahaha=x p.s: something is on my mind. i really don know what i should do!? hahaha-.-
品冠 - 我以为
你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不是靠宽容
就能够解脱
我以为
我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为你
已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
我以为终究
你会慢慢明白
他的心不在你身上
我的关心
你依然无动于衷
我的以为 只是我以为
我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好
你要留在谁身旁
我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望
却输得那呢绝望
♥ 9:42 AM
ding dong! haha rachel is here to blog!=D lame-.- haha today ah yeo was back!!! oh man..when i reach store, everyone was so quiet.O.o hmm.. not use to it. felt so weird. haha anyway today she's busy with all her paper work and stock count. didnt have time to talk to her. she bought a gift! thanks ah yeo(: hope u do enjoyed ur trip. haha.. as usual i'll b doing cashier. shi sian de lor=x take order take untill i feel so sleepy! muhahaha(: luckly i'm with dear,tudi and saiful outside. hee hee.. not tat bored=p no need to say. ofcos i love working wif dear. hahaha she always cheer me up! pei wo talk cock!=D erm.. saiful? hahaha alt he very bian tai.. like to touch touch. hee hee i know he's jus playing la=x his dirty jokes really make laugh like mad~! plus his stupid action~! hahaha alway stand at counter with different pose! CJ's model? hahaha=x hee hee.. yanping tudi? hmm.. good working with her. she will listen to wat i say. always give me questions. haha ok. she's always willing to do wat ever task i gave her. i care for her alot. from e day she called me shifu. i know tat i wont treat her jus like a normal crew. when she's feeling down she will look for me. i'm glad tat u do(: sometime u said tat u have been bully by ***. i'm damn pissed off lor. hmm.. today u seem to b weird. it's ok if u don want to tell me. cos i cant force u to do so. i'm willing to listen if u wan to share ok?(: hahaha. anyway i know tat ur have already tender resignation letter. wish u all e best! take care ya~!
ard 4plus. i was taking my break time. yanping told me tat dillon they all came. haha i was damn happy(: faster called them to pei wo. hmm.. arron di u change alot le hor=x hee hee.. look good man! shuai le la(: erm.. dillon lao di.. really miss u la. still so cute n HANDSOME ok!? haha.. someone said want to hug me rite?? but don dare hor..O.o hee hee don pai sei la^^ it's ok. dajie hug u ok.. *hug hug*
o.O haha after closin.. dear, frieda and i went to cine! hee.. dine in at "xing wang".. yummy~! yummy~! had my fav pork ribs bee hoon+HK.milktea(: lalalala~! haha ILOVEMILKTEA! after eating. we were sitting there chatting n take lots of photo!!=x laugh! laugh! laugh! all e way.. hahaha.. oh ya! jus now got free show to watch at cine. ops! haha those china ppl quarrel and fighting!? stupid! lame-.- che bao mei shi gan... boo~!
now it's already 4.11am.. gonna slp le(: p.s: ni yao xiao xin hor! (jm)
♥ 4:18 AM
