i am really clueless. what when wrong between us? in the first place i admit i was wrong, but i thought everything was fine after that. i remembered i did ring you out but in the end you didnt even contact me. i asked you what happened.? you said everything was fine, you need some time to think about some things. and when the time is right you will let me know. during that time, i was so worried i wanted to know what happened to you so much but i am afraid that you will get even pissed off if i keep on asking. maybe what i said now to you is all bull shit.! after that i did message you, i did call you. but you didnt reply any message or calls. cause in your mind you already think that this person called or message me is because there's no one she can find, her boyfriend was not with her, she's look for you to kill time while waiting for boyfriend. right? think that i have change? i don care what you think about me, how i treat you? what i can say is i really treasure the friendship we have. the way i treat you is still like a sister. i told some of my friends and even my boyfriend that there's a girl "
R" she is always more than a friend to me. she listens to my advise, she care for me, she a friend that drop her precious tears for me, she worried for me, she treat me well and of cause she loves me. i love to share things with her cause she will understand me. i was so glad when i received you message last 2 weeks if i didnt forgot, you asked me regarding job thingy right? after i reply to your question, i asked you how have you been? and you stop reply. i start to think that maybe thing goes wrong between us? why you are avoiding me? last week i called you a few times after i knock off from work, i was thinking to look for you at your work place. in the end you didnt pick my call. i did think to look for you at your work place, if i go there without you knowing i am sure you will get pissed. right? since you didnt feel like contacting me, what i can do is to update myself about you in your blog and friendster. was so surprise to see the post., totally heartbroken. i love a sister like you. having a borfriend doesnt mean that i neglect you or i dont care about you anymore. i admit that i have lesser time for you, i did went off to meet him when i am with you. that's already past. i didnt expect that you think about all those past and make you sad again. u said i am nothing to you. it's ok. till now you still mean alot to me. loves cant be compared! towards him and you! yes you have grown up. i agree with it. you have choosen to hate me. you have made you choice. tell me what can i really do?
p.s: thanks for the 3years sistership.
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