i am out of my mind! hate this weekend. tears flowing down while i'm blogging. i love my family, yes i do. but my brother don treat me as his sis. hah. tat's how i feel. called me a bitch! is tat the way you call your sis? i dislike staying at home. home sucks! and i'm feeling so down now. just because my brother want to use the laptop. he called me so many times and i refuse to answer. he ask my mm to call me. as usual, i get scolding. hah wat a good way! i am a person tat doesnt know how to express my feeling. ppl usually will get it wrong as if i am angry or emo for nothing. i am not! wat i need is care and concern. i don want any other things. is't simple enough? i don ask for much. cos i jus need attention. tat makes me feel tat u care! tat's y i feed down n emo easily. i was thinking too much. cos i cant get ur attention, i tot u don care abt me. sometimes i think it's better if i don exist on this world cos my mind are making me so irritating. sucks personality. i don think i am a good person. all along i tot i will be the only one tat treats you well. but no. i don think so. i cant help when u troubled. i tot our relationship can be happy. no. it's all me. my fault. i make u sad. i really wan the both of us to stay happy. but y? wat happen to me. i am afraid tat one day you cant tolerate me and chose to leave. so i'm trying very hard to cheer up. tat's my problem, not yours. now i cant tolerate myself from all those negative tots. arhhh so complicated. i really don know wat i want. i am tired. really tired. all along i don dare to say all this in my blog cos i wan others to know tat our relationship is perfect. but now, this is the only way i can let you know how i feel and y i am so irritating. cos i know u are reading this post. as i said i will not leave you only when u chose to let go. from the begaining i change myself because of you. treat u like my king, listen to you give u my trust no matter wat. giving you chances cos i am giving myself hope. all these are done cos i know that one day you will change for me. thanks god you are mine, you change. i know i have choosen the rite one. no matter wat. i hope we can still hold on hand in hand together. p.s: if i'm sad pls don show me tat u r oso sad. cos i want ur smile.(i wan to b ur perfect girl)

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